Monday, April 18, 2011

i run

Here is the supergirl yarn that I bought when I travelled to the Loopy Ewe while at CampKIP. Technically, it's madelinetosh sock in vintage apron but I like Supergirl better so that's what I'm calling it. The picture and the idea for the color way were given to me by the fabulous Erin of the Anatomy of Knitting Podcast. I love her.

I'm on about the 4th stripe of my Daybreak shawl. It's my first ever shawl. I like it and have made some mistakes already but they are mild. The yarn on the left is the awesome CampKIP color way from Turtlegirl and the yarn on the right is Dream in Color Smooshy gifted to me by Erin.

Yesterday marked a month since my Dad died of a massive heart attack. Wish I could say that life is easier or that it sucks but it's not as easy as too extremes. There are things to be joyful about: my niece, Applejax, getting ready to crawl, my accomplishment of running for 25 minutes straight as I prepare for my first 5k run on 5/7. There are things that rip my heart out: the community concert band program w/ the trombone section on the back where it's the only picture I have of my Dad and I playing trombone together EVER.

I keep to myself most of the time these days because it's just easier. I don't tweet a whole bunch and I could care less about facebook. Life is supposed to go on..and that part breaks my heart. Life goes on, and my Dad's voice becomes faint, and more distant. And I don't like it.


drMolly, the BeanQueen said...

My heart goes out to you my dear, but you will get through it. Time, just give yourself time, and, of course, you know you will not get over missing him, you will just live with it. Much love.

wooliegirl said...

You remain in my thoughts and prayers. I still ache for my uncle and grandfather (lost them both last fall)...I don't care what people say, you miss them!
Congratulations on your running! I too will be in a 5k May 7th, yay us!!

KnitNurd said...

You are never far from my thoughts dear fru! I lost my dad when I was just 14 and I can tell you time does not heal, it just gets different. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you, but everyone handles the death of a parent in their own way. Right now, just be good to you and take care of yourself. I'm sure your dad was so very proud of that 5k and kick ass as I know you will!!!!

What gorgeous yarns!!! You have come so far with your knitting and crocheting. Kudos, my friend!!!